Morning     : +1

Noon        : -2

Afternoon   : -2

 

It has been some time I did not write my diary. What happen to me is that I was so up in my mood for this short period of time. And now I'm falling to the lowest point in life. I'm free now, able to write my diary as much as I want, having more time to build myself. 

 

I've a very good time for the past 1 month, laugh and joke with the Korean lady that I love. Indeed, I find joy in our relationship, pure joy of good friendship, companion and encouragement for each other. Now, it's gone.

 

I guess I back to square one, learning the new tricks and experience. Kind of painful to me, my heart is aching non stop. I thought I have been back in shape, physically and mentally. Instead, I'm not, I sway away from Him for a short while and ended up living in agony. And now we are separated for some time, each of us have to reconsider our faith in Him, and needed some time for ourself. To me, it's over. Because I have been bad.

 

When it's all been said and done, there is just one thing that matters, did I do my best to live for truth, did I live my life for You?  

When it's all been said and done, all my treasures will be nothing, only what I done for love's reward, will stand the test of time.

Lord, Your mercy is so great, that You look beyond our weakness, and find purest gold in miry clay, making sinner into saint.

And I will always sing your praise, here on earth and ever after, for You shown me heaven's my true home.

When it's all been said and done, You're my life when life is gone.

~Jim Cowan