Morning     : Neutral

Noon        : Neutral

Afternoon   : +2

 

I went haywire, wonder why I can easily get disturned. I went for a meeting with my boss this noon. After come back, I'm physically tired and not motivated. While I have work to be done, this colleague of mine again giving me heart attach. Wondering in his dream and suggest his idea to the boss. At the end of the day, he added up my work load. Again and again, he day dream and ask others to execute his dream while he put aside his work. So, I stand firm on him this time.

 

Today, I've to start all over again, I have been struggling to change my old self and become a new self. Sometime I wonder, have I ever make it through; through this world that I haven't knew, I just want to have a clue. Sometime it seems, the world is closing in on me, and there's no way for me to breaking free. Sometimes I want to give up, or give in to the undesire, and I want to quit the fight. But when I see You reaching for me, everything seems to be alright. Because of You, I can face the world, I can do anything and I will not quit the fight easily. When I think how You have mould me, shape me; I see a ray of light, shine right through the rain.

 

I'm hunger and thirst for You and Your word. I couldn't give up for the good thing I'm pursuing, I will not quit and I will not lose heart. I do not mind there will be no one who can understand what I desire, certainly I do mind that I couldn't be the one He wants me to be. I would rather give up all comfort and easy living in this life, to pursuit what is good and righteous. If that's what it takes.

 

Life is like cycling, tough but enjoyable. This is how I perceive it. I love tough sport, like road cycling. Sweat and pain is all I desire. Like my life, nothing come easy. If you want to enjoy the satisfaction in life, you have to be persistance and determine. Today, I have the joy for conquering the little Alps.