Morning     : +2

Noon           : Neutral

Afternoon   : +1

It was a fallen week, and I have not doing very well over my addiction. I’m loosing myself.

I’ve stop exercise for 2 weeks, and I resumed today. My neighbour’s uncle cycled with me and he shows me a new road behind my house, quite a nice place to cycle without much traffic. And it doesn’t take up much of my energy too.

In the morning, I was angry, because my superior is going to stop my TV project. All the effort I’ve put in will go to waste.

Last Tuesday, I went for an interview to do voluntary work. It is the longest interview I had in my life, about 2 hours. We talked about the job description and also shared about our point of views in life. And the interviewer assigned me to assist them in teaching refugees’ children. In what subject, I have no clue. I’m happy, because I have a chance to help out the needy.

I joined this group sometime, not too long ago. I was benefited from their program. I learned from them to trust in God the different way, which mean strip down myself to nothing; like an empty jar, to be filled with fresh water. However, in this step, I become my old self. Hope deliverance will be nearby; I’m on a trench now, waiting for rescue.

For the past few weeks, I’m not so happy, I’m troubled. While everybody in the office is waiting for a big job to come, we received bad news that we will not going to have any big project in near time. At the same time, I’m not happy towards my superior; the superior is not motivated to continue the struggle through the tough time. And the whole office atmosphere is dim. I guess it’s time for me to move on.

There is hope to carry on, I shall wait for the Higher Power to show me the way.