Morning           : Neutral

Noon                 : +2

Afternoon         : +2

I couldn’t take it any longer; I’m so angry and frustrate about myself. This feeling in me, dissatisfied over the thing that I’m facing, past and present. How much more I’ve to suffer? How long I have to be in this way?

First day at work, not too bad. waited for door to open, listened to "old stories" from a supplier. This is what I normally face during my lifetime. It was hot in the office, I felt so uncomfortable wearing long sleeve shirt, felt like I'm going to sick. While I'm figuring my new work during noon, someone shook me up, someone that I reluctantly wanted to remember.

I did not start my day the way I want it to be. While hoping of having a new start in life, I ended up with hatred, anger, frustration and afraid. I did not do well recently, add up with the dissatisfaction over my current life, the place I stay, the parking issue at my resident area, my neighbour making noise, water leakage in my house, my work; I have enough of it. It's been weeks I've this frustration, I’ve enough complain, I want to get over it!

How long I have to wait for a change? How much more failure I have to face? I couldn’t take it anymore. My past has given me too much pain that I couldn’t bear, and only God know how is my condition now. I wish You are here so that I don't need to face fear all by myself.

Good bye my love, such a touching song, came at the right time. Like a healing remedy pour on my wound and relieve me from pain. I have to move forward, nothing seems to follow my pace, nor I can find someone that can share my pain and gain. I know, I don’t need to, I’m alone.