Morning     : Neutral

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Afternoon   : Neutral

 

More than a month I'm away from keping track of my progress. I'm reluctant, maybe it's because of mood or I am reluctant to post it online due to privacy issue. I'm glad I'm back to business.

 

It was a whole lot of mess since August till September. I guess I've no luck and have faced tremendous conflicts in the office. Who ever is wrong, I blamed no one but to say "I'm no luck". I quit for good, fear of unwanted troubles coming to me if I continue to work in that company. And starting from the beginning month of October, I'm jobless and worried over my debts and expenses. On top of that, I've faced the issue of my pay being put on hold. Praise to the good Lord, I managed to get my pay eventually, not fully but I'm satisfied and hold no grudge. That's how it is, as the Lord told us to love our neighbour.  

 

Life can be tough, real tough, specially to me. Maybe my tolerance capacity is not big enough, but certainly I do confess my life is not a smooth ride. In the midst of worriness, there comes the salvation. I am defective to a certain degree, yet my God show mercy on me. After a 15 days jobless period, I'm back on track with my favourite work. This is the most difficult and challenging interview I never had before for this work. After a gruelling struggle of interviews, finally they decided to accept me with compassion. And yet, I must perform. I rest assure I do not want to run around this time. For this job is meaningful and I've no complain!

 

Yesterday was my church big brother's wedding, I help out as a usher, I guess I did a good job and I've someone book me to become their usher for a wedding next year. Kind of exciting, I wonder whether usher can be a full time job. I'm happy to see my big brother has a new life, a beginning of his journey into parenthood.

 

Today was a memorable day to me, finally a young woman stand up to lead the praises. It shock me, but I struggling myself, saying that she's new and doesn't know the tradition. When the service is over, my elder call up all the men to stay in the hall and give us a lecture. Well, he is a lecturer in a private college. It is an awakening call to all men, to perform their duty as a man in the church, to lead and to serve the Lord's worship. True enough, men are less active now days. The men tradition must move on and ceased to extinct!

 

The day of misery came to an end, and I'm starting a new leaf. To believe there is a higher power that will lead me is the only way of life. It's good, and I believe following God's word is the only way to have meaningful life. I will try to be good, even though it's hard in this modern day. Well understood that there is a lot of tests waiting for me ahead, and I am awaken by recent incidents that happen to me. I will not give up searching for good.